This morning I woke up in a slight state
of panic. I was heavily breathing and sporting a slight sweat.
It had happened again...
BABY NIGHTMARES
I've only experienced this once before
during my pregnancy, the first
time a lot more vivid.
The first time it happened, I dreamt
that it was summer time and my mum had come over to the house.
For some reason, she had decided to open
the 'stable door' in the lounge (which we don't have).
Later that evening the hubs and I were
tucked up in bed, when I opened my eyes to see the neighbours cat staring right
at me by the bedroom door... (if you don't follow the blog, read the post
entitled 'phobias' to see why this was such a huge problem for me)
Next thing I knew, the hubs was shaking
me awake. Apparently (in my sleep) I'd gone a little nuts and was running
around the room screaming in distress.
Not a baby or new mother related
nightmare I know, but a nightmare nonetheless and nightmares are not something
I had experienced so vividly before during my pregnancy.
Last night, the nightmare was baby
related, however my memory of it is far less vivid. I know that the dream
wasn't good leaving a very bad feeling and I know that it included blood...
That's all I want to say (or think) about it, as it was so horrid.
It's funny how pregnancy effects every
part of our beings, even our subconscious.
Over the past few weeks, friends have
been sharing their own pregnancy nightmares with me, and they can really be
pretty horrendous...
One friend woke up (in the dream) with a
flat belly and burst into tears (she's 7 months pregnant), one friend couldn't
find the baby in the dream only to discover it was under her bed!
I know this is part and parcel with pregnancy
but that doesn't help at that moment when you wake in an utter state of panic
and shock!!
So, what's the reason for pregnancy
nightmares? Common sense tells me it's our fears, worries and hormones all
coming together in our subconscious and that whatever the dream may be is utter
rubbish and means nothing.
I remember when I was getting married. I
suffered about three nightmares including cheating, death and outrageous
wedding disasters.
Obviously there was no meaning to any of
this, as I believe there is no meaning to my recent bad dreams.
That doesn't mean that I'm left feeling
at ease at all though, after dealing with one of these dreams I'm left feeling
a bit flustered and out of sorts for the day...
After the cat nightmare I kept seeing flashes
of that cats face whilst standing at my bedroom door (in my mind, ready to
attack!)
HORRENDOUS!!
I don't think there is any point trying
to rationalise these dreams, but I do think talking them out with others helps
ease the memory and stress related to them.
The irony for me? I've been having such
trouble sleeping recently and the first time I actually have a good nights
sleep on ages, I'm woken first thing in the morning by a horrid nightmare!!!
Not looking forward to crawling
under the covers tonight…
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